I will start menopause today. Watch out for moodiness, hot flashes, forgetfulness, trouble sleeping, and others I won't mention. That's what the nurse told me. Just for a couple weeks, though. After all, this is not the Change of Life, this is temporary. An "induced menopause," brought on by medication, in preparation for a cycle of in vitro fertilization ("IVF").
Welcome to my first post on my first blog. Thanks for visiting. My goal here is to tell my truth, to exercise my voice, to know what I think when I see what I say.
The desire to start blogging has been there a while, and the catalyst for finally beginning is a 10 iu injection of Leuprolide and a many thousand dollar investment in my and my husband's hope for a child of our own.
I am calling it "Mother on Earth" because I want to be a mom, and I try to be conscious about the consumer choices I make and how they affect our planet and the people who live here. For Christmas, I got the book "Clean House, Clean Planet" by Karen Logan, and I am slowly incorporating "green" cleaning into our household. I buy organic when I can, recycle and reuse, compost our scraps, grow organic fruit and vegetables in the back yard, and have started learning about and supporting fairly traded foods and other products.
One last thought. No matter what amount of cash or drugs we pour into this IVF effort, my husband and I know that God is the one who makes babies, who gives life. So I hope this blog will also be a reminder to me to be obedient to the IVF protocol but surrender this to God, to let go of any sense of control and trust God to meet all of my needs, and to reach for the love, joy, comfort and hope that comes from staying connected to our community of faith.
That's all for now. Peace be with you!